The Bible is filled with pretty messed up people.
Have you ever read through the entire book of Genesis?
I grew up in Sunday School thinking of these people as heros. It starts with Adam and Eve. The first man and woman on earth who, start their lovey-dovey relationship by blaming each other for eating an apple. AN APPLE. Then they bore children, of which one son kills the other out of jealousy. #familygoals #fail
The world then becomes so messed-up that God had to wipe out the entire human race except for one obedient man, Noah, and his family. It is amazing how the obedience of one man can save an entire family.
Lot, another person in the Bible, had daughters that got him drunk and slept with him to preserve their family line. How warped is that? Jacob tricked Esau (his older brother) into selling his birthright for a bowl of soup and started sibling rivalry for generations to come.
Rachel was obsessed and competitive about bearing children for Jacob. So obsessed that she even had her slave girls sleep with her husband to out number her sister.
Rahab was a prostitute.
Joseph, being the favorite son out of his 12 siblings, was sold as a slave by his brothers because of their jealousy.
The craziest thing is that all these people are a part of the genealogy of Jesus. God knew the depths of darkness in their hearts and yet redeemed their sinfulness and used their life to restore light to the world.
I don't know about you, but that gives me hope.
No matter how far gone you feel from God, God still wants you. Just like Rachel, we often focus too much on comparing our lives and our accomplishments with others. We end up judging how much we deserve based on merit. Grace is not about what we deserve, but about what God gives us regardless of what you deserve. God knows everything about you, and yet He still loves you and always will. You are never too out of His reach to be loved, redeemed and used by Him to do good works.